Her hair was long and blonde. Mine was short and mousy. She was athletic, outgoing, popular. I was lucky if I had enough strength to leave the house. While her phone buzzed in her hand, nobody was texting me. The only person that called me pretty was my mum. Why did I compare myself so [...]
***TW: Suicide and self harm It had gone on long enough, I was scared of what would come next, but I knew I needed to get help. I felt like I was out of options, I couldn’t carry on living in a world that had lost all its colour, existing in a void where I [...]
It's Tuesday night and I'm already stressed out about all the things I have to do this weekend. My mental health has taken a hit recently, so I've been neglecting tasks like doing the laundry, walking the dog, and getting a haircut. It was starting to show. I felt bloated and sluggish, but I was [...]
Saturday, a day for a lie in - not for me. I’m rudely woken at 6am with the same familiar dread in the pit of my stomach; I have things to do today so my body starts to panic about them nice and early for me. I’m sure everyone else who has a to-do list [...]
Depression has a way of making us neglect our needs to the point where we train ourselves not to need them anymore.
5:30AM. The alarm sounds. Yes, I know I get up incredibly early, someone somewhere told me it would be good for my mental health (not if you pressed snooze it wouldn’t). Plus, I must walk the dog. The crushing feeling of having to drag myself out of bed, get myself to look presentable and participate [...]
I’m surprised most about the uncertainty- I really thought at age 21, I’d have all my ducks in a row and probably would have ticked a few major things off my bucket list. No such luck. I know I’m not alone in this but it’s still hard to not be disheartened by my lack of [...]