Why does January drag on for years? It’s my least favourite month – Christmas is over, everyone is back to work, and the weather is utterly miserable.
I started 2020 with so much hope and optimism; but in just 4 weeks that’s all faded away. I’ve been struggling with both my mental and physical health this month. I haven’t been sleeping, I haven’t taken care of myself, and I’m feeling more lonely and isolated than ever.
January is the worst.
I’ve been able to sink a lot of time into TV, books, and games due to my physical and mental exhaustion. I guess that’s somewhat of a silver lining to this foggy mess of a month.
What I’m reading: I’ve finished The Self Care Project and I felt much lighter after reading it. That was definitely what I needed this month. I also read Skyward by Brandon Sanderson; and I didn’t expect to love it as much as I did. I’m not reading anything else now until the sequel arrives at the library in a few weeks!
What I’m watching: I’ve watched a lot this month. I’ve almost finished season 5 of Community. I watched Lost in Translation for the first time and honestly – I don’t get what all the fuss is about? I thought it was disappointing. Documentaries have really grabbed my interest this month and Netflix has loads at the moment. I’m watching Explained, and I’m really enjoying it because each episode is only around 20 minutes long so they’re easy to watch. I also watched The Game Changers – it’s a fantastic documentary and I’m recommending it to everyone.
And just this week I watched After Life (late to the party, I know). It has to be one of the best TV shows on right now, and I think it’s criminally underrated. It doesn’t shy away from talking about dark subjects but handles them so sensitively. The scenes that discuss depression and suicide are some of the most poignant and accurate representations I’ve ever seen on TV.
What I’m playing: Yep, I’m still playing Mass Effect 3. I’m going to be sticking with it for a while, because I’m not ready to let go of Shepard. Just dragging out all the silly side missions for as long as I possibly can.
What I’m listening to: I don’t know if it’s because I feel so worn out, but I’ve been really drawn to relaxing acoustic songs this month. I’ve followed a bunch of Spotify playlists and even started compiling my favourites from each into my own. I’ve got an acoustic playlist for each season, and I love playing them in the background while I’m cleaning or writing.
Favourite blog post: I’m going to be honest, I don’t think I’ve read any blog posts this month! I’ve been struggling with blogging at the moment, and just motivation in general. I haven’t really been keeping up with any blogs, including my own. Comment with your blog link – I’d love to catch up on what I’ve missed this month!
Goals for February: I really want to push myself out of my comfort zone and meet someone new, maybe even make a friend. I’ve been so lonely since moving up to Scotland, I have no idea how to make friends as an adult. It’s hard to find people I have enough in common with. I’m not the most socially active person in the world and I’m very introverted, but I never realised how much I needed friends until now.