October has felt like a really long month.
Normally I’d be happy about this – Autumn is my favourite season and sometimes it seems to go by too quickly to really enjoy it. But I’ve been struggling with my mental health this month.
There’s been lots of tears and stress and worrying throughout October as I try to pick myself back up again.
I’m at another crossroads in life; I’m starting to visualise more clearly the kind of person I want to be, and what I want to do when I grow up, but I feel stagnant right now waiting for the wheels to get in motion.
I’ve been making active steps towards improving my life. More than I’ve done before. I’m eating less meat, reading more books, and almost completely shunning social media. It’s time to start being the best version of myself.
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What I’m reading: I’ve been trying to read more and this month I definitely have. I read Gwendy’s Button Box by Stephen King and Richard Chizmar. It was pretty short so I read it in an evening. It was fine – not my favourite Stephen King book, but not bad.
I also started reading The Bear and The Nightingale by Katherine Arden. I was so excited to read this book, I’d heard so many great reviews about it being atmospheric and cosy, which is just what I needed this month. The writing is absolutely beautiful, and I really felt like I was there. Unfortunately, for whatever reason, I struggled to want to pick the book back up again, so I gave up around 100 pages in. Maybe I’ll try again another time.
Lastly, I’m halfway through Siddartha by Herman Hesse (which is currently only 91p on the Kindle store!). It’s a strange book, but I’m really enjoying it. It reminds me of The Alchemist, so if you’re a fan of that book definitely give this one a try!
What I’m watching: I’ve not watched anything new this month. I finished off series 3 of Friday Night Dinner (now waiting for Netflix to add the rest), and I watched The Terminator a few nights ago. I never got to see it when it came out so when I see a classic film on Netflix, I take my chance before it’s gone again!
What I’m playing: I don’t know if it’s because I read more this month, but video games have been neglected. I must make some time in November, it’s such a great release for my stress and anxiety.
What I’m listening to: My brother has been pestering me since June to listen to the Black Keys new album ‘Let’s Rock’. They’re one of my favourite bands and their latest album doesn’t disappoint. I may or may not be listening to it as I write this post.
Favourite blog post: I’ve got two this month! The first one is ‘Small Changes I’ve Made to Help Save the Planet’ by Blog of Thoughts. The post is full of helpful and inexpensive ideas on how to do your bit for the environment. It’s a very important issue and it’s great to see people offering help to those who might not know where to start.
The second one is ‘October Bullet Journal‘ by Maverick John. I’ve been taking self development and organisation seriously this month and starting a bullet journal is definitely something I want to do. John’s pictures are so autumnal and cosy, and his straightforward and minimalist journal style makes me feel like I could easily start one too.
Goals for November: First of all, get better. My mental health has given me a kicking recently but that doesn’t mean I have to stay down. I’d also like to devote more time to hobbies that don’t have to be a ‘side hustle’. I’ve forgotten what it’s like to enjoy things for the sake of enjoying them.