It’s been a while – it feels like I haven’t written a post in so long, and being offline for 2 weeks had me feeling so disconnected that I actually felt a little lost stepping back into this. It’s been quite difficult getting back into the swing of things, so I wanted my first post after so many weeks off to be more of a catch up about what’s going on with me because I feel like there’s a lot to talk about!
Firstly, I’ve just been on holiday! My boyfriend (Ollie) and I took a road trip through France, Belgium, Switzerland, and Monaco – driving a total of 2461 miles! We camped in a tent every night on the route, and of course my anxious brain was thinking of all the ways the trip could have gone wrong: I worried about not having a place to stay at night, running out of food or petrol, or breaking down in the middle of nowhere, but none of those things ever happened, so screw you anxiety. The holiday was very different from what I’m used to and it really forced Ollie and I out of our comfort zones. I’m so glad we did it, I had the most amazing time and I’d do it all again without hesitation. I’ve definitely got the travel bug now, but I do hope the next holiday is cold!
Being away from the comfort and familiarity of home also caused me to face a truth I was trying to ignore for so long; that I want to write full-time. I’ve spent my short working years stuck behind a desk filling out spreadsheets and answering phones and I’ve always known it wasn’t my passion. If I found an interest in something, I would be far too scared to pursue it further for fear of failure. But this time I’m ready. I’m ready for the rejections, the tears, the doubts, because I know by choosing this path and sticking with it through all the highs and lows, that it will all be worth it in the end. I can’t stop thinking about it, about all the possibilities, and I can’t help but notice the happiness I feel when I think of what all my hard work could grow into. I’ve already landed my first writing job to attend and review a play at Edinburgh Fringe Festival this year! (You can read more about the show here)
But there’s just one more thing I have to take care of first…
After a lot of difficult discussions and careful thought, Ollie and I have finally decided to follow our hearts and do what’s best for us right now, and I still can’t believe it’s happening – I’m moving back to Scotland! We are beyond excited to start this new chapter of our lives and just want to get the ball rolling as soon as possible! The first step is applying for jobs in the area, so it all depends on how long it will take us to land jobs, so keep your fingers crossed for us!
Of course, with everything that’s going on in my life you may notice fewer posts on this blog; I hope that doesn’t happen, but I don’t want to overwhelm myself with too many responsibilities at once. I am so passionate about mental health and my blog won’t be going anywhere, it’ll just be a bit quiet around here for a while!
I will still be around on Twitter, shouting about mental health and sharing way too many pictures of my pug, so if you don’t follow me already, you should!
There, all caught up.
So that’s my year so far – what have you got planned for the rest of 2018?