Ask anyone and they’ll tell you that they want to be remembered for something. A lot of people fear fading away and being forgotten – leaving no legacy or lasting impression on the world. I’m terrified of that. I feel like I have an opportunity to make a difference and have a purpose, and I’ve kicked myself for every time I’ve missed that opportunity.
I want to be remembered first and foremost as a survivor. The girl who was always getting kicked down, but refused to stay down. Who picked herself up time and time again, a piece of her missing each time but another piece of her stronger than ever. The girl who smiled despite all that she had experienced, and who still laughed and cracked jokes to overcome being damaged beyond repair.
But that isn’t enough for me, I’ve always wanted my creativity to live on long after I’m gone, and I wanted my wisdom to reach people when I couldn’t personally. I’ve thrown myself into writing about mental illness and my life experience because I feel like I have finally found my calling, I want to help others like me, I want this to be my legacy.
A lot of people achieve incredible feats or perform selfless acts to be remembered – they break world records, donate to charities, save lives…But all I want is for people to see me as the one who ‘made it’ despite all my personal setbacks. I want people to know that a good life is possible with a mental illness, and that it is not enough to simply be alive – you’ve got to live. What is a life without meaning?
Maybe your ultimate goal isn’t to help others, it can be anything you want it to be, but I encourage you to find it and do whatever it takes to achieve it. Your One Big Dream should be what you strive for your entire life. What if you never left the mark you always said you would? If there is something in life you wish to accomplish, don’t give up until you have it.
I have started this blog because I want to talk about mental health, I’m planning to post once a week, sharing my experiences I’ve had with anxiety and depression and offering help and advice for others like me. I hope you’ll stick with me, and we can end the ugly stigma together.